As time goes by

I've settled into my gig well enough over the past couple months. It pays well enough and doesn't conflict with my #1 PRIORITY, so all is WIN-WIN, right?

I read a quote attributed to Buddha that sums up my existence, but I'll sum it up as: "Contentment is fleeting when desired outcome is realized."

On many levels, I'm very satisfied, but yet there's that nagging thought that I could be doing better. I read my Dale Carnegie, and I am worry free. I suppose the hopeless feeling will pass, but after having been consumed by the job search for as long as I was, I'm beat. Moral victory in that I didn't quit, but I'm no where where I intended to be 5 or 10 years ago. I can accept it as my lot in life or I can just build upon it. I choose the latter option, but for the time being I'm in need of assessing where exactly I am and where I want to be and how I intend to get there.

So, I am officially back to getting regular wages, but I make roughly what I did in '07. I feel like David Janssen's character in The Fugitive, only my one-armed man is a full-time job that pays a living wage.

Rejection

Sometimes a job isn't a fit, but others the fit is real. I thought I had such a case, and I didn't get the job. I can look up who got the job and see all of this person's internet footprint and be aghast by being passed over for this person, or I can just say it wasn't meant to be and move on.

I've been moving on, but I seem to be on a treadmill, for I'm getting nowhere fast.

Feels like I'm having my George Costanza moment. Whatever I am doing wrong, I must change.

Some rejections hurt more than others.

In the back of my head I was dreading that I'd get a job that I wouldn't be able to honor the commitment due to a better offer coming up.

When you are unemployed, you apply for a lot of jobs that you may not normally consider if you already had a job. Beggars can't be choosers.

Well, I can focus on my second interview.

Besides there will always be a dream job for me to desire as long as I'm not at the top of my profession or independently wealthy.